I thought it was the imminent end of the blog. So, DELETE.
Then, there were after-thoughts.
You see, blogging has unleashed my heart to be honest. I don't lie to myself anymore. I don't try to convince myself that I want something that someone else says I should have.
I've learned invaluable lessons through blogging...like these pearls of wisdom:
*Dieting/losing weight doesn't solve problems. It just makes you skinnier.
*Money doesn't solve problems, it just creates new bills, really.
*Friends are important. Be attuned to them. Ask questions. Be more than an acquaintance. It could save a life.
*Alone time is overrated.
*You are more than yourself, more than your choices. You're not an island. People need you. You need others. It's not weak to ask for help, it's weak not to ask.
*Your sisters are uber important, and they unlock keys to life that no one else can.
*Physical strength is overrated. It's amazing what you can do with only one arm.
*Physical health on the other hand is necessary. It's a direct effect of mental health.
*Give people second chances, never thirds.
*People come into your life for a reason, enjoy their presence even if your differences are greater than your commonalities.
*Education never stops.
*God doesn't want you/will not allow you to walk away from teaching. It is your vocation. Leaving would be akin to getting a divorce. God does want you to be a change agent in your field, in order to do that, God needs you to rely on the Eucharist and lead a healthy prayer life.
*God's command is to love your neighbor--so stop volunteering in so many different areas to earn Brownie points.
*God wants you to lead. God is giving you stressful, complex problems to teach you to speak up and stand your ground.
I'm not through with the blog yet, just know that my blog is a Jackson Pollock painting, in which I'm throwing emotion at the canvas of blogger with bright splotches of unscripted, unplanned, unorganized, messy, laughing so hard that you choke life.
That's my blog.
I've brought back my original domain name, Song of a Sunflower, because, well, when you delete your blog and bring it back, you really have no choice.